coldplay.

a rush of blood to the leg.

that always feels painfully liberating. strangely numbing at first, but as soon as blood starts pumping into your blood-deficient veins, every dying cell begins to celebrate.

i fell asleep last night, at the computer with my right leg propped up by my left knee, in an awkward, vein-constricting position. and you all can guess what happened next. i really wonder what it is that brings me to consciousness only just before my oxygen-deprived cells start dying before i know it. haha it must be a reflex of some sort.

too many times i could have woken up with a useless arm or a lifeless leg, but i wake up just in time, every time. weird huh. like i remember the time i fell asleep with my right arm behind my head, and waking up completely numb. and of course, the sensation of blood coursing through the vessels in my arm when the pressure point's lifted.

ugh.

anyhow, i'm home now. : ) time to get over jetlag. tennis tonight! and happy birthday jr!

thankful.

just got off a 4+ hour flight from detroit to portland. and thankfully, there's free internet access here : ) amazing.

anyhow. thank you for the sweet sweet surprise. : ) unexpected. and thank you for the generosity. and thank you for the fellowship. and thank you for all the good times. You all have shown me the love of God, and I can never thank you all for that timely reminder. : ) purpose.

24+ hours more to go.

Because You have been my help, therefore under the shadow of Your wings, I will rejoice.
Because Your lovingkindness is better than life, My lips shall praise You.

relationship.

smallgroup on wednesday was refreshing. it's been a long time since i've experienced genuineness in community : ) and the love of God was uniquely present that night. i thank you all, for reminding me that Jesus is ever so involved in my life, even the most minor of details. it's not about prayer, it's all about the relationship.

cellgroup on friday was a blast, too. much memories of jcwesta : ) back home. thank God for friends like you all. and thank God for brothers who give godly advice. you have no idea.

i'll wait on God for this once.

and for eternity, too.
You have opened my eyes.

change.

ok so i'm migrating all my music to this new media player from Yahoo. Just click 'Play' and u can access the songs on a playlist. Pretty sweet. and it works on Firefox too : )

still in transition!

edit: ok so i'm done. wil, you can just let the playlist run through all the songs now ;) easier hee. be blessed, folks.

redeemed.

Revelation 13:16He also forced everyone, small and great, rich and poor, free and slave, to receive a mark on his right hand or on his forehead, 17so that no one could buy or sell unless he had the mark, which is the name of the beast or the number of his name.

it's hard not to rely on yourself for your success, at times. it's the economy of the world isn't it? the ones with the better lives are the ones who are smartest, strongest. survival of the fittest. i have fallen again into that trap, to say the least, and Jesus in His mercy, will save me like He always does. : )

i like the other interpretation of the verse above: in these last days, the accuser stands to persuade the people that the only way they can succeed in this (already fallen) world is through the sheer strength/intellect (right hand/forehead) of the individual. and through this, satan is able to disqualify the people from receiving their inheritance--when in fact, Jesus has already purchased for us the right to reign in life. and what happens when things don't go your way, in spite of your efforts? you question. you question God and His intentions for you.

but God sees not as man sees. and God has walked into all my tomorrows. who am i that You might die for me? yet You did : ) and still, it pleased You to crush Jesus so that i might receive Your free favors. You promise me a future and a hope, with plans not to harm but to prosper.

thank You.

treasure.

Matt 6:21 For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also.

my treasure is You, who make the impossible, possible : ) and You did. the promises are sure, and they are surely yes and amen.